Saturday, December 13, 2008

Holiday blues? or something else?

Read this post over at Rave's blog.

It's been a rough year for me.
First, there was the tornado.
Then, my dad.
And most of a summer thinking I had cancer.
Topped by an economy that has me begging my boss to let "the powers that be" know that I'm willing to work part-time if they need to cut back some more, because part-time is better than fired.

I keep waiting for it to get better.
"Once this is over..."
"As soon as I don't have to deal with this anymore..."

Maybe it really is something.

I'm not supposed to burst into tears just because the burger place didn't give me a spoon to eat my root beer float with?
When I give the boy the last of the chocolate milk, even though I really really wanted it myself, and then he spills it all on the table and doesn't get to drink it anyway... that's not a good reason to lock myself in my room for half a day?

I'll go get help.


Tammi said...

You have had a tough year, and the holidays by their very nature just make it replay all over again. Sorta dealing with that myself.

For me, what's helping is to help Cuz deck her halls. It doesn't make it go away but it does force me to think about something else for a little while anyway.

Now, go buy yourself some chocolate milk and pick up a box of plastic spoons to keep in your car. It won't fix it, but it'll help a tiny bit!

Rave said...

want me to send some reading material/brochures? I can. :-)

Remember- understand the difference between your true self and symptoms.....and having one thing after another , while it is not unusual, does happen....and doesn't necessarily mean you need to run out and buy chocolate with a creamy prozac center.

Try just the chocolate for now. :)

Hapkido said...

I can empathize a little bit. Tornadoes? Yes. Dad? Most definitely. Cancer worries? You bet. Sometimes we all get fed a big crap sandwich.

One thing that may help is changing up your routine a little bit. Do something you've always wanted to do - something that you'll be excited to tell people.

Winter is especially tough with the stressful holiday season. Take a small trip to a place that's warm(er). It doesn't have to be Cabo or Fiji, but getting away for a weekend can change everything.

My 1st day back to work the rice pudding that so deliciously waited to be eaten spilled & it was all I could do to keep it together. It's anxiety & stress. Change your perspective for a couple days & it will help at least a little bit.

Bob said...

Who you are isn't defined by what you feel. (Do stay off the booze. The chocolate's a good idea.)

Thumper said...

You can only get kicked in the gut so many time before stupid stuff sets you off. Yeah, I'd go a little nuts over the spilt milk after a crappy year, especially if I really wanted it.

Richmond said...

Oh yeah - I can play this...